03 June 2010

where to begin...

Just getting back into the swing of things, finally. I had some much needed and relaxing time off school, took a getaway weekend, finished some projects around the house, and now I'm back into full school/work/creative mode. I feel quite a bit of relief, as I know that I am almost done with school, and I only have one class this term. I don't know how people can continue to go to school full time and work full time. I was stressed enough doing that and I don't even have kids! I've known 2 people that have done that, and had families, and I don't know how they managed to keep their sanity. See, I actually like working in the yard, doing laundry, the dishes, vacuuming, and washing the dog. That helps maintain my balance and sanity. As well as riding my bike and doing yoga, but I digress. 
I guess it's the Libra in me, but I have to maintain a balance in my life. If I don't, I am stressed. It's not like I yell and pull my hair out or anything like that. My jaw hurts. Yep, I end up tensing in my jaw and that's how I can tell I am stressed about something. So my jaw has been a little tense lately. I end up yawning a lot in order to relieve the pain. I'm not really tired, but it looks like it. 
So this picture is of my last and final textbook for this degree. It's huge. Not a difficult read, really, just a very large and heavy book. It's been raining a LOT here lately, so I have had lots of time indoors to finish up reading. This is an online class too, mind you. I have 2 group projects, but so far, it seems like everyone is ready to go and on board with it. I've had 2 minor snafus with other online group projects, but it didn't take away from the group or overall grade. 
Since I know this is my last class and I'll be graduating soon, I feel a sense of relief in that I can get back to my 'regular' life. (I sound like that BP exec from England, only my statement is not in the same context. thankfully.) I can get back to reading, and writing FUN stuff, not papers and case studies and taking quizzes. I can get back to being creative and taking pictures. I can get back to resting easy and enjoying time with my beloved, Scotty, and the kittens. I can get back to working in the yard and enjoying it too. And FINALLY I can get back into my regular workout routine. I haven't been able to do that in about 6 months either and I am so looking forward to it. 
I have discovered, through this process, that I am a one-large-project-at-a-time kind of girl. This way I can focus properly on the one project and get it done right. For the last 6 months, school has been it. I am not sorry to say that, it's just what it is. But I feel like I have neglected so many other aspects of my life that are just as important, and I don't think that's fair. Then again, life isn't fair. So, I suck it up, and move on. It's been quite a cathartic journey for me. Everything for a reason, and it has led me to where I am now. Where I will go from here, I don't know. But what I have done so far has prepared me for it. I look forward to the future journey. Enjoy your journey, where ever you go. 

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